{"id":1303,"date":"2022-08-18T17:17:11","date_gmt":"2022-08-18T17:17:11","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/mysecretlife.org\/?page_id=1303"},"modified":"2022-09-08T18:00:22","modified_gmt":"2022-09-08T18:00:22","slug":"volume-two-chapter-ten","status":"publish","type":"page","link":"https:\/\/mysecretlife.org\/?page_id=1303","title":{"rendered":"Volume Two Chapter Ten"},"content":{"rendered":"\t\t<div data-elementor-type=\"wp-page\" data-elementor-id=\"1303\" class=\"elementor elementor-1303\" data-elementor-settings=\"[]\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-section-wrap\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<section class=\"elementor-section elementor-top-section elementor-element elementor-element-96f3078 elementor-section-boxed elementor-section-height-default elementor-section-height-default\" data-id=\"96f3078\" data-element_type=\"section\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-container elementor-column-gap-default\">\n\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-column elementor-col-50 elementor-top-column elementor-element elementor-element-a6360b6\" data-id=\"a6360b6\" data-element_type=\"column\">\n\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-wrap elementor-element-populated\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-element elementor-element-3a30d38 elementor-widget elementor-widget-html\" data-id=\"3a30d38\" data-element_type=\"widget\" data-widget_type=\"html.default\">\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-container\">\n\t\t\t<iframe loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/open.spotify.com\/embed\/album\/0xfNyje7pGOYDHaVHXaG9H\" width=\"300\" height=\"380\" frameborder=\"0\" allowtransparency=\"true\" allow=\"encrypted-media\"><\/iframe>\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-column elementor-col-50 elementor-top-column elementor-element elementor-element-5897d2d\" data-id=\"5897d2d\" data-element_type=\"column\">\n\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-wrap elementor-element-populated\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-element elementor-element-89cae91 elementor-widget elementor-widget-html\" data-id=\"89cae91\" data-element_type=\"widget\" data-widget_type=\"html.default\">\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-container\">\n\t\t\t<iframe loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/open.spotify.com\/embed\/album\/3MqyiA1fV9eF80kej9vjaP\" width=\"300\" height=\"380\" frameborder=\"0\" allowtransparency=\"true\" allow=\"encrypted-media\"><\/iframe>\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/section>\n\t\t\t\t<section class=\"elementor-section elementor-top-section elementor-element elementor-element-e67283e elementor-section-boxed elementor-section-height-default elementor-section-height-default\" data-id=\"e67283e\" data-element_type=\"section\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-container elementor-column-gap-default\">\n\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-column elementor-col-100 elementor-top-column elementor-element elementor-element-30af892\" data-id=\"30af892\" data-element_type=\"column\">\n\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-wrap elementor-element-populated\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-element elementor-element-245f93e elementor-widget elementor-widget-text-editor\" data-id=\"245f93e\" data-element_type=\"widget\" data-widget_type=\"text-editor.default\">\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-container\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<section class=\"elementor-section elementor-top-section elementor-element elementor-element-94f8d0b elementor-section-boxed elementor-section-height-default elementor-section-height-default\" data-id=\"94f8d0b\" data-element_type=\"section\"><div class=\"elementor-container elementor-column-gap-default\"><div class=\"elementor-column elementor-col-100 elementor-top-column elementor-element elementor-element-ee09f26\" data-id=\"ee09f26\" data-element_type=\"column\"><div class=\"elementor-widget-wrap elementor-element-populated\"><div class=\"elementor-element elementor-element-874a3e6 elementor-widget elementor-widget-text-editor\" data-id=\"874a3e6\" data-element_type=\"widget\" data-widget_type=\"text-editor.default\"><div class=\"elementor-widget-container\"><div class=\"page\" title=\"Page 315\"><div class=\"layoutArea\"><div class=\"column\"><p>VOLUME 2 CHAPTER 10<\/p><p><i>Nelly and Sophy. \u2022 The beer-house again. \u2022 Sophy\u2019s belly. \u2022 On the road. \u2022 Against a tree. \u2022 At the baudy house with Sophy. \u2022 Her narrative. \u2022 Tom and the three sisters. \u2022 Fred on the scent.-Pender\u2019s troubles.<\/i><\/p><p>I had some food at an hotel, then returning on foot saw at the end of the lane two peasant girls in their Sunday finery. I looked at first without recognising them, but as I got close saw one was Nelly, the girl I had raped. She stopped, I smiled. \u201cYou here, why?\u201d \u201cTaking a walk sir.\u201d \u201cCome with me.\u201d She hesitated, looked at the other girl. \u201cNever mind\u201d, said I, \u201cbring your friend with you.\u201d Two minutes brought us to the beer- house again. \u201cStay here\u201d, said I. I went to the side entrance which was up a yard, told the woman who stared when she opened the door to me to show the girls up the other way. They came through the shop, and stood curtsying when they came into the little sitting room.<\/p><p>I wanted Nelly when I saw her, and hence what I did; but was embarrassed now, for with the other in the room I did not know how to proceed without compromising her; so sent for some spirits. They sat Sheepishly. I said to Nelly with the view of getting rid of the other, \u201cPerhaps your friend would like to call for you presently.\u201d \u201cShe is my sister\u201d, said Nelly. Impulsively I cried, \u201cYour sister?\u201d \u2014 \u201cwhy she is the girl who was in the family way before she was four-teen.\u201d \u201cOo\u2014h !\u201d said Nelly\u2019s sister, \u201cwhat a lie, \u2014 what a shame to say such things of a girl, \u2014 who said so?\u201d I was disconcerted. \u201cI heard it, but can\u2019t recollect who.\u201d Nelly never spoke, but sat looking at me with her tongue out on one side, and a funny expression in her eye. \u201cI\u2019ll go\u201d, said her sister. \u201cDon\u2019t go\u201d, said Nelly, \u201cthe gent\u2019s asked us in, and will be offended, -won\u2019t you sir?\u201d \u201cYes\u201d, I replied.<\/p><p>The liquor came, I dosed them with it, and a letch for the sister came over me. \u201cShe in family way, that young thing,-is it so ? \u2014 how I should like to see her belly.\u201d My conversation got warm, then baudy, the girls got warm, and laughed at my smut. From kissing one, I got to kiss the other, then to pinch, poke and feel their legs, I spoke about women being\u00a0<span style=\"font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit;\">in the family way, made light of it, wished I was so myself, and so on, and they let out as the liquor worked, and I questioned.<\/span><\/p><\/div><\/div><\/div><div class=\"page\" title=\"Page 316\"><div class=\"layoutArea\"><div class=\"column\"><p>The younger was a little over fourteen years old, Melly only eleven months older. Said I, \u201cA girl can\u2019t be in the family way before she is fourteen.\u201d \u201cOh ! yes she can\u201d, said Nelly. \u201cHow do you know?\u201d She laughed. I plied the liquor, got the young one on to my knee, and my hand up her clothes. A yell, a threat to go, \u201cnonsense\u201d, from Nelly. Then I shoved my hand up Nelly\u2019s petticoats, \u2014 which she permitted quietly. Then I had a strange whim.<\/p><p>\u201cStand close together with your backs to me, and put your hands behind you, and I will give you some-thing before you go; then each shall ask the other to guess what I have put in her hand.\u201d They did, and expected money. I pulled out my prick and balls, one girl\u2019s hand I guided under my balls, the other\u2019s round my prick. They touched at the same time and knew what it was, and turning round, \u201cIt\u2019s his thing\u201d, said the youngest.<\/p><p>\u201cYou knew it was a man\u2019s prick\u201d, said I. \u201cyou have felt one, and one has been into you, \u2014 let\u2019s feel your cunt, do, \u2014 you are in the family way, I know you are.\u201d<\/p><p>Then I sat between them, talking outrageous baudiness with my prick out. \u201cCome into the other room\u201d, said I, \u201cand let me see if you are in the family way, and I will give you this (producing a sovereign) ; if you are, or are not, you shall have it.\u201d She refused, but eyed the sovereign. Said Nelly, \u201cWell, I wish he would ask me.\u201d \u201cSo I do, but she shall come first, you afterwards.\u201d The girl asked, \u201cHow will you tell?\u201d \u201cMy dear I shall lay you on the bed, throw up your clothes look at your belly, and feel your cunt.\u201d \u201cI shan\u2019t then.\u201d \u201cThen you won\u2019t get a sovereign\u201d, and I put it bye. \u201cI\u2019ll go with you\u201d, said Nelly, but I would not accept her offer. There was a pause, the sister sat reflecting, her gaiety was gone.<\/p><p>Soon afterwards I renewed the request. \u201cLet him\u201d, said Nelly, \u201che won\u2019t talk, he don\u2019t know people in the village.\u201d The girl shook her head sullenly, Nelly looked at me nodded her head, and put her tongue out. I did not know what it meant, at last guessed. \u201cIs she?\u201d I asked. Nelly kept on nodding. \u201cWell Nelly says you are in the family way.\u201d The girl began to cry. \u201cWhat\u2019s the good of crying?\u201d said Nelly, \u201cyou can\u2019t hide it long.\u201d The girl kept silently crying. I persuaded, Nelly persuaded, and at last\u00a0<span style=\"font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit;\">she came into the bed-room. I could feel the poor little girl\u2019s hard belly, lifting her clothes I opened her thighs and looked; then she resisted, but a little only. I frigged her, kissed her a little, coaxed her, and then fucked her. She spent freely. It\u2019s my luck to get sisters.<\/span><\/p><\/div><\/div><\/div><div class=\"page\" title=\"Page 317\"><div class=\"layoutArea\"><div class=\"column\"><p>\u201cTell me Sophy all about it, \u2014 how long since you were got in the family way?-your sister will wait.<\/p><p>She counted on her fingers and said, \u201cFour months and about a week.\u201d \u201cAre you sure?\u201d \u201cYes.\u201d \u201cHow can you tell?\u201d \u201cI have never been done but on one day.\u201d \u201cNonsense.\u201d \u201cIt\u2019s true.\u201d \u201cDo you mean that once putting it up you got you in the family way?\u201d \u201cI didn\u2019t mean that\u201d, said she, \u201che were only once with me, but he did it all night, and nearly all the next day.\u201d \u201cA dozen times?\u201d \u201cDon\u2019t know, I was so ill, so sleepy.\u201d \u201cWho is the father?\u201d She shook her head. \u201cI can\u2019t say, \u2014 dare not, \u2014 it would be worse for me if I did.\u201d \u201cWhat are you going to do?\u201d \u201cGo to the work- house if they won\u2019t keep me\u201d, said the poor girl crying again. She was rather watery headed.<\/p><p>It was an exciting termination to the day. After frigging her till she was in the seventh heaven, I fucked her again. It was the same bed I had fucked Pender on.<\/p><p>\u201cYou\u2019ve been an hour\u201d, said Nelly when we went in, \u201cwhat have you been doing?\u201d \u201cNothing but examining.\u201d The girl stuck to that also. \u201cOh I gammon\u201d, said Nelly.<\/p><p>\u201cYou come now\u201d, said I. She would not, was sulky, and another hour went away. It was getting late, I pulled Nelly into an open-legged posture over mine as I sat on the chair, and lifted her clothes. Her back was to her sister. I got my cock between her legs, it rubbed her thighs, but she slipped away, turned sulky, and would not let me fuck her, though I felt her. They left, and I directly after. When clear of the town, and on the road it got dark, I joined them and learnt where Sophy lived, and could be met. Because Nelly would not let me I felt a want for her and made baudy requests. She got randy, and told Sophy to go ahead. Then I got her up against a large tree, and straddling my legs wide to get into her, found it difficult as she was short, but was poking her with vigour when we heard footsteps and voices. \u201cOh !\u201d said she, \u201clet me go, it\u2019s so and so.\u201d Although I held her on my peg, grasping her bum, and hoping to spend\u00a0<span style=\"font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit;\">before they came up, I being empty was long about it, so she uncunted me, and slipped away just in time. It was two or three men she knew, who seeing girls ahead ran after them, I dodging round the tree as they ran past. They over-took the girls, I followed at a distance sufficiently near to hear their low chaff, their attempts to kiss the girls, and the yells of the sluts when they attempted more.<\/span><\/p><\/div><\/div><\/div><div class=\"page\" title=\"Page 318\"><div class=\"layoutArea\"><div class=\"column\"><p>When I saw Pender again I heard that her husband had for some reason gone to *** on the Sunday she was there with me. He stayed, and took his wife home. \u201cDid he do you?\u201d said I. She coloured up. \u201cIt be a fact he did,-it be most curious. I were hot with running, and fetched the meat from the bake-house. After dinner he said, \u2018Well you do look comely, you do to-day, where \u2018as you been?\u2019, and he pulled me on his knees, and put his hands up my clothes, \u2014 and in all my life he never had done such a thing afore in day-time. Says he, \u2018Lass we\u2019ll have a game at mother and father.\u2019 Said I, \u2018Why P., you must have been drinking,\u2019 He pulls me down on to sister\u2019s bed which were in the corner of the room, and I would not let him. He lays, \u2018Don\u2019t make a row, for I means it\u2019, and so I let him do it.\u201d Such games went on until full Autumn, I was always after one or the other as fancy led, or opportunity offered; but was obliged to be more and more cunning, for fear I should be found out. Although I had heavy fucking at times, yet had good rests between. It was a jolly time, but mainly with three of the four women now. Nelly got the most of my cock at first, Sophy very soon after.<\/p><p>The little one in the family way had taken my fancy. I fucked her in the lane and fields, but mainly upright, the grass being now damp. One evening we went to the baudy house. I had pleasure in fucking her, but she was always crying. \u201cWhy do you meet me?\u201d said I. \u201cTo get money to help me if they turn me out.\u201d \u201cWhen?\u201d \u201cWhen they find I am in the family way.\u201d At last but with difficulty, I got out of her much about her seducer and give the narrative as near as I can in its order.<\/p><p>\u201cYes it is a big man, a fine, tall man, and quite a man, not old, not young. \u2014 Oh ! I dare not say who, it would be worse for me (a cry), \u2014 you won\u2019t tell Nelly,-how came you to know my sister? \u2014 do you do anything to her ? \u2014 now do tell me.\u201d \u201cWell tell me your history, and perhaps I will tell you about Nelly.\u201d<\/p><\/div><\/div><\/div><div class=\"page\" title=\"Page 319\"><div class=\"layoutArea\"><div class=\"column\"><p>\u201cWell he got into bed with me saying, \u2018It\u2019s cold, -and it were, \u2014 let\u2019s lay here, it will be no harm, no one will know.\u2019 I said I would hollow, but there was no one in the house\u2014Now I am letting out, and I won\u2019t.\u201d She stopped, and would not tell more.<\/p><p>Persuasion, kisses, promises, and she answered my questions again. \u201cHe cuddled me, he was big and strong, and I could not help it; and then he pulled up my shimmy, and his shirt was up, and he put his belly close to mine.\u201d \u201cThen his prick was up against your belly?\u201d \u201cI shan\u2019t say\u201d, said she with a modest fit, no sham. \u201cWas it? \u2014 was it just as my prick now is?\u201d Her story was exciting me, I pulled her belly up to mine, and my prick, a right good stiff one was between us. \u201cI suppose it were\u201d, said she, \u201cI don\u2019t recollect, all seems in a muddle, he hurt me dreadful, I screamed, he put something over my mouth, and I don\u2019t know no more; but he was doing it right up, and I were hollowing, \u2014 and then I cried.\u201d<\/p><p>\u201cAre you sure you cried out?\u201d \u201cI hollowed I know, but I knowed there was no one to hear.\u201d \u201cThen you were in the house alone?\u201d \u201cYes.\u201d \u201cWhat house?\u201d \u201cI shan\u2019t say, \u2014 Nelly is always asking, and I won\u2019t say, -you won\u2019t tell her, will you now sir, what I have told you ?\u201d<\/p><p>\u201cI don\u2019t recollect more\u201d, she went on, \u201cbut he lay on me, oh! a long, long time.\u201d \u201cNot up you?\u201d \u201cYes oh ! a long time.\u201d \u201cDid he keep on fucking?\u201d \u201cHe kept on a doing it and stopping,-no he never pulled it out, at last I fainted or slept I suppose, for when I recollect more he was out of bed. Then he got into bed, and he did the same I can\u2019t say how many times. When it were day I said, \u2018Ain\u2019t you going to work?\u2019 and he said, \u2018No. If any one comes they will think I am gone, and if you say a word if anyone knocks I will murder you.\u2019 Then he got up, and showed me his razor, and said, \u2018Do you see that? \u2014 I bloody well mean it, mind.\u2019 Then he got into bed again, and he did it again.\u201d<\/p><p>\u201cDid you like it?\u201d \u201cI don\u2019t know, I was all pain, but I think I must at last; I was so muddled like and ill I could not move. Then he dressed and says, says he, \u2018If ever you tell I\u2019ll cut your bloody throat; now you say you were ill, and stopped at home from work\u2019, and he went away to his work.\u201d I guessed she had been raped.<\/p><p>Another day I had Nelly, and questioned her. She said she wanted to know, but did not; she guessed, but dared not say. Sophy had said there\u00a0<span style=\"font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit;\">would be murder if she told who the father was, but she guessed. She was only eleven months older than Sophy, who must have been in the family way just before she was fourteen, had had her courses when thtirteen years old, and was \u201chankering after the chaps\u201d quite early. \u201cMother used to slap her for it.\u201d Nelly\u2019s courses had only recently come on, she said.<\/span><\/p><\/div><\/div><\/div><div class=\"page\" title=\"Page 320\"><div class=\"layoutArea\"><div class=\"column\"><p>Sophy although younger and slighter built, had more hair on her cunt than Nelly, and gave me the idea of being older. Neither were tall, both were larger in their thighs, haunches, and bubbies, than town girls of the same age, as far as I can recollect.<\/p><p>I can\u2019t recollect the order, but only the broader features of this part of my amorous history. I think that after the Sunday when I had Pender and Sophy I could not get to Pender, for the farm-yard from morning to night was full of labourers; so busied my-self with Sophy, who two or three times the same week met me at ***, and what I have narrated was told me there. It delighted me to hear about her virgin offering, it made my cock stand. Then I would fuck the little wench, and make her arse wag like the tail of a duck that had a thwack with a stone, then would question her again. If she said she should say no more, I used to remind her of what she had let out on the previous night. What delighted my sensuous imagination, was the evident fact that the man was big, and with a big prick, and must have kept it up with her without uncunting till he had fucked her three times. Her praying him to go, trying to get from under him his grasping her to him so that she could not move, his laying quiet on her, then commencing his shoves, -all proved it. He seems to have began his assault on her about nine o\u2019clock one night, and never went out of the bed till two o\u2019clock the next afternoon.<\/p><p>\u201cHas he ever done it since ?\u201d \u201cNever, he has never had a chance; he has tried to catch me coming home, but I always come with some one else; he has asked me, but I never would.\u201d \u201cI dare say you egged him on; had he never made a baudy sign? Never shown you his prick?\u201d \u201cBoth Nelly and I had seen that\u201d, said she, \u201cwe looked through the key-hole if we heard\u2014.\u201d Here she stopped short, and nothing would make her go on, she saw she was on the point of giving the key to the riddle.<\/p><p>I advised her to get as much money as she could, and then if unkind she might snap her fingers at them. She had kept all I had given her. I had a feast with her of rump-steak and onions one night; she eat till she could\u00a0<span style=\"font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit;\">eat no longer. I toppled her up with hot spirits and water, and then tumbled on to the bed with her. She was very communicative, I frigged her about till with a sigh she said, \u201cOh ! let\u2019s do it.\u201d<\/span><\/p><\/div><\/div><\/div><div class=\"page\" title=\"Page 321\"><div class=\"layoutArea\"><div class=\"column\"><p>\u201cTell me who did it to you then, and I\u2019ll give you another sovereign to keep you through your confinement; feel my prick, and tell me.\u201d She reflected, she was so lewd, I knelt on the bed, my prick standing stiff in front of her face. \u201cYou won\u2019t ever tell any-body\u201d said she, \u201cwill you?\u201d I swore I would not. Rubbing her eyes she hesitated, then said, \u201cTom.\u201d \u201cWho is Tom?\u201d \u201cHester\u2019s husband.\u201d \u201cWho is Hester?\u201d \u201cMy sister,-oh ! don\u2019t tell, or he will murder me.\u201d I saw the whole story at once. In another minute we were fucking. Afterwards she told me all.<\/p><p>There were three sisters, Hester married Tom, a labourer; Sophy lived with them, Nelly lived with their mother. Tom and Hester had a two- roomed cottage, in one they slept, in the other, which was sitting-room and kitchen, was a bed in the corner, where slept Sophy. The mother was dangerously ill, Hester went to assist Nelly attending her; so Sophy was alone in the house with big Tom, who took the opportunity to put his big prick into Sophy\u2019s little cunt, get her in the family way, threaten to murder her if she ever told, to turn Hester into the streets, and do any other amount of deviltry. Sophy was frightened of Tom and at first of her sisters knowing about her swelling belly, till it was found out. All was quite probable. I believed it implicitly. The size of Tom\u2019s prick, and the number of times he had done her were all described with modesty. I pitied the girl, and resolved to help her. Tom bore I found a bad character, and Hester no bet-ter, had been confined soon after she was married. The child was dead. All three sisters now lived with Tom since the mother\u2019s death.<\/p><p>\u201cYou knew all about fucking long before he did it to you.\u201d \u201cOf course we did. Nelly and I often talked about it, Hester told us what pleasure it was; we could hear Tom and Hester doing it. Nelly if sleeping with me used to listen. They used to hang a cloth before the door, \u2014 there were cracks in it,-if they did not, we could see through if there were light, and sometimes they forgot. Nelly and I have both seen Tom\u2019s cock that way. Once he showed it to me as it were by accident; he was in the privy, and he called out to me to bring him a leaf. When I took it him his cock was out and stiff; he grinned, I looked, he took the leaf, and ran a hole in it\u00a0<span style=\"font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit;\">with his finger, and put his cock through the hole, then he said, \u2018If you tell Hester that, she will turn you out.\u2019 So I never told, but I told Nelly. He did the same to Nelly one day, but we held our tongues.\u201d<\/span><\/p><\/div><\/div><\/div><div class=\"page\" title=\"Page 322\"><div class=\"layoutArea\"><div class=\"column\"><p>That is all I have to say about Sophy here. I had her from time to time until within three months of her confinement, for simple curiosity. I had no pleasure in it when her belly got big, but I kept her in money.<\/p><p>Nelly I also had. She came a saucy, lewd, low-tongued little bitch; but I liked her fuck. I found her larking with men, and stroked her more than once in the lanes. One night I caught her by surprise, and saw some male going off in the dark as I thought. \u201cThat was a fellow with you\u201d, said I. \u201cNo it was not.\u201d But her cunt had a most unusual wetness. I hesitated, and said that some one I thought had just wetted her. She was confused, denied it, and whimpered at my suspicion. I again felt her, and putting my fingers and thumb together was sure it was spunk, and turned away; but felt so randy, that I turned back after her, wiped her cunt with my handkerchief, made her piss, and then fucked her up against a fence.<\/p><p>As I relinquished my hold of her bum I heard some-thing fall with a chink. \u201cOh !\u201d said she, \u201cI have lost some money.\u201d It was very dark, I picked up the money, could not see what it was, but was sure from the feel it was gold, and said so. She had got it back before l made the remark, and would not let me feel it again. \u201cYou told me you hid the money I gave you.\u201d \u201cI\u2019ve been carrying it about for fear of its being found.\u201d I told her she was lying.<\/p><p>I had been out that day with my gun. On returning found Fred had come down from town, and been there all day; he had had a quarrel with Laura. I don\u2019t know how it struck me, but I asked, and found he had only just come in and said to myself, \u201cHe has fucked Nelly, it was his money she dropped, it was his sperm.\u201d I did not tell him so then.<\/p><p>The farm-yard now was never empty, they were thrashing in the barn. Molly was scarcely visible, and if in the yard her mother was at her back. When I did see her I winked at her and she laughed. She was growing wonderfully, and my desires turned to her. I had Pender one night or so; but a few hurried words, a smooth of the buttocks, a hurried grope with the finger, a silent kiss or two, shove, shove, shove like a steam-engine,\u00a0<span style=\"font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit;\">and a pull out of my prick almost before the spunk was well out, was all I could get.<\/span><\/p><\/div><\/div><\/div><div class=\"page\" title=\"Page 323\"><div class=\"layoutArea\"><div class=\"column\"><p>I was out shooting most days, and would walk across the farm-yard just to see if the coast was clear. After several Sundays had passed I got Pender again at the baudy house. P. took her being in the family way rather grumpily, and she hated him since she had been with child. She loved me, begged me to take her away, where, how, she cared not, so long as she knew that I alone could have her; she would live alone if I only came to see her once a month, she said.<\/p><p>I was sorry for this. What had been pastime to me was going to be misery to her. I had to show her the impossibility of my keeping her; then she said she would drown herself. Altogether it was not a very comfortable meeting apart from the fucking, which was as good as usual I dare say, though I don\u2019t recollect much about it.<\/p><p>Fred went backwards and forwards to London, I did occasionally, but not on his days, for he was in my way. I did not tell him now much about my little games, and got most of my women when he was absent. My mother and sister also went home, and I was glad of that, but it made it more needful for me to walk and drive out with aunt and cousins. I was constantly scheming and dodging how to get one or the other of the women, and that seemed to give zest to the affair; but I think now that the pleasure I gave the girls when I had them had much to do with it. Sophy and Nelly now came after me, as much as I went after them. Each now knew that I fucked the other. \u201cWhen did you do it to my sister?\u201d was a frequent question put by both of them to me.<\/p><\/div><\/div><\/div><\/div><\/div><\/div><\/div><\/div><\/section>\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/section>\n\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>VOLUME 2 CHAPTER 10 Nelly and Sophy. \u2022 The beer-house again. \u2022 Sophy\u2019s belly. \u2022 On the road. \u2022 Against a tree. \u2022 At the baudy house with Sophy. \u2022 Her narrative. \u2022 Tom and the three sisters. \u2022 Fred on the scent.-Pender\u2019s troubles. 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