{"id":1480,"date":"2022-08-21T17:08:52","date_gmt":"2022-08-21T17:08:52","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/mysecretlife.org\/?page_id=1480"},"modified":"2022-09-11T19:08:14","modified_gmt":"2022-09-11T19:08:14","slug":"volume-four-chapter-two","status":"publish","type":"page","link":"https:\/\/mysecretlife.org\/?page_id=1480","title":{"rendered":"Volume Four Chapter Two"},"content":{"rendered":"\t\t<div data-elementor-type=\"wp-page\" data-elementor-id=\"1480\" class=\"elementor elementor-1480\" data-elementor-settings=\"[]\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-section-wrap\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<section class=\"elementor-section elementor-top-section elementor-element elementor-element-329ad71 elementor-section-boxed elementor-section-height-default elementor-section-height-default\" data-id=\"329ad71\" data-element_type=\"section\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-container elementor-column-gap-default\">\n\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-column elementor-col-50 elementor-top-column elementor-element elementor-element-a057908\" data-id=\"a057908\" data-element_type=\"column\">\n\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-wrap elementor-element-populated\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-element elementor-element-00d23f8 elementor-widget elementor-widget-html\" data-id=\"00d23f8\" data-element_type=\"widget\" data-widget_type=\"html.default\">\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-container\">\n\t\t\t<iframe loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/open.spotify.com\/embed\/album\/3s4ktxYTKNhDjb0L07tKsO\" width=\"300\" height=\"380\" frameborder=\"0\" allowtransparency=\"true\" allow=\"encrypted-media\"><\/iframe>\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-column elementor-col-50 elementor-top-column elementor-element elementor-element-62dadde\" data-id=\"62dadde\" data-element_type=\"column\">\n\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-wrap elementor-element-populated\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-element elementor-element-7514cc2 elementor-widget elementor-widget-html\" data-id=\"7514cc2\" data-element_type=\"widget\" data-widget_type=\"html.default\">\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-container\">\n\t\t\t<iframe loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/open.spotify.com\/embed\/album\/4yiBnC4Hss27EPtqnHa3uY\" width=\"300\" height=\"380\" frameborder=\"0\" allowtransparency=\"true\" allow=\"encrypted-media\"><\/iframe>\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/section>\n\t\t\t\t<section class=\"elementor-section elementor-top-section elementor-element elementor-element-a54349e elementor-section-boxed elementor-section-height-default elementor-section-height-default\" data-id=\"a54349e\" data-element_type=\"section\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-container elementor-column-gap-default\">\n\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-column elementor-col-100 elementor-top-column elementor-element elementor-element-253aa46\" data-id=\"253aa46\" data-element_type=\"column\">\n\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-wrap elementor-element-populated\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-element elementor-element-7de4bdf elementor-widget elementor-widget-text-editor\" data-id=\"7de4bdf\" data-element_type=\"widget\" data-widget_type=\"text-editor.default\">\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-container\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<div title=\"Page 648\" style=\"color: rgb(105, 23, 23); font-family: Georgia, sans-serif; text-align: center;\"><div><div><p style=\"font-size: 16px;\"><b>VOLUME 4 CHAPTER 2<\/b><\/p><p style=\"font-size: 16px;\"><i>Louisa reappears. \u2022 Crabs. \u2022 My despair. \u2022 A friend\u2019s advice. \u2022 Promiscuous harlotting. \u2022 Fucked out. \u2022 My friend\u2019s little woman. \u2022 Lizzie Stanley. \u2022 The hole by the back-bone. \u2022 The little woman\u2019s sister. \u2022 Many naked ladies. \u2022 Operations in a four-wheeler. \u2022 A she on the top. \u2022 The cunts in two houses. \u2022 Slandered. \u2022 A sodomitic offer. \u2022 Nonacceptance.<\/i><\/p><p style=\"font-size: 16px;\">After calling many times, and not seeing Sarah, Louisa appeared again. We met and poked. She was as lascivious and willing as before, but hurried. She was now kept, and was superbly clothed. Tired of knocking about, I wanted to settle to one woman, and told her so. Said she, \u201cIf Sarah Mavis was to come any day, you would throw me over for her, \u2014 I would once have lived with you on a pound a week, but you would not have it.\u201d That was true. I told her I was going abroad. We met once a week, but I could not reckon on her, and she objected to go to J***s Street; so I used to wait for her with a carpetbag, and go to a hotel, take rooms as if for the night, dine, fuck, and leave. To have this was amusing once or twice, but it did not satisfy me.<\/p><p style=\"font-size: 16px;\">She liked me I know, and arranged to stop with me all night at an hotel, which was in Gt. P***l**d Street, but when she came it was impossible, she said, to stay all night. I was excessively angry, and would not fuck her. After dinner she coaxed me, and of course I did, but was sulky. \u201cDon\u2019t be angry, \u2014 I would like to sleep with you quite as much as you would, but I dare not tonight, \u2014 let us do it again.\u201d She was laying on the sofa, I would not. How well I recollect her puffing her whole clothes up to her navel, and laying with her big thighs open. \u201cDo it again, there\u2019s a darling.\u201d I threw myself on to her afterwards. \u201cIs not my cunt wet? \u2014 you always do make me so wet, \u2014 I always seem to spend twice as much with you as I do with my friend.\u201d She kept my prick in her for a quarter of an hour afterward, kissing me all the time. Then she was obliged to go. She was fond of laying on the bed after I had had her, remarking how wet she was, and then shutting her eyes seemed to be thinking voluptuously of the condition of her cunt.<\/p><\/div><\/div><\/div><div title=\"Page 649\" style=\"color: rgb(105, 23, 23); font-family: Georgia, sans-serif; text-align: center;\"><div><div><p style=\"font-size: 16px;\">She went away hurriedly, stooping and kissing my naked prick before she departed. She was going out of town, we were to meet again, but we did not and I never saw her after that night. \u2014 Hannah did not either.<\/p><p style=\"font-size: 16px;\">(This I note here because it seems to indicate to my-self my erotic phase at this period. I never licked the cunt of Sarah or Louisa, nor, to save recurring to the subject, the cunt of Jenny whose doings with me I have already told.)<\/p><p style=\"font-size: 16px;\">One day I had Sarah in the morning, had to meet a man at luncheon, and went off hurriedly without washing. I went back in the afternoon, and found Louisa in the parlour. We talked with my hand on her thighs, Hannah said, \u201cYou had better go upstairs,\u201d just then the door-bell sounded. Hannah looked out, we heard her say, \u201cGo up sir, she will be here directly I\u2019m sure.\u201d Coming in she laughed. \u201cIt was Louisa\u2019s friend.\u201d \u201cHang him,\u201d said Louisa, \u201clet\u2019s have a poke.\u201d \u201cGo on to my bed,\u201d said Hannah, and left the room. On the side of the bed I tailed her in no time. She went up-stairs, and where she washed I don\u2019t know. There was a bed hidden by curtains but no washing materials in the parlour. Hannah performed her ablutions in the back room when it was not occupied. I dined at my Club, and going home, called on Jenny. She was in fear about her sister coming, but I fucked her on the sofa, and left instantly, went to bed tired and without washing, and by daybreak was off on a fishing excursion. In fact I did not wash my prick for about three days, except the tip which I never failed to wash. Then I found I had the crabs. How did I get them?<\/p><p style=\"font-size: 16px;\">I had given up Sarah, but still loved her, though I felt I was a madman to encourage it, and that nothing but trouble and misery to me could come of my taking to her again. I had confided my trouble to an old friend, who chaffed me and cheered me. \u201cYou fool, to keep to a woman who is only playing with you, \u2014 and a fat flabby woman like that.\u201d He had gone with me to see her in the poses. \u201cHave them younger and fresher, \u2014 you\u2019ll get plenty to like you, \u2014 but directly you find you are taking too closely to any woman in future, cut her, go out of town, go abroad, try fresh women every night, do all you can to forget her, \u2014 change of scene, and plenty of change of cunt, is sure to make you forget any woman.\u201d<\/p><p style=\"font-size: 16px;\">He was a cold-blooded man, and would have turned off a woman who was in his way with but little ceremony. When he knew of my love&nbsp;<span style=\"font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit;\">matters he disclosed some of his. I had not the least suspicion before of how much he amused himself with women. His idea of them was that they were only made for amusement, not for affection.<\/span><\/p><\/div><\/div><\/div><div title=\"Page 650\" style=\"color: rgb(105, 23, 23); font-family: Georgia, sans-serif; text-align: center;\"><div><div><p style=\"font-size: 16px;\">I acted on his advice, and swore I would never have a woman twice. When a woman said after I had stroked her, \u201cShall I see you again?\u201d \u201cNo,\u201d I replied, \u201cnever.\u201d What a lot have stared, and asked me why. Then I told them. \u201cAll women are not like her,\u201d they mostly replied, but I determined to think they were, and went on changing night after night. Black cunts, brown cunts, little bums, big arses, fat and lean, little and big, I took after each other, just as lust seized me; but however much I enjoyed a woman, go again with her I would not. So I guess nearly a hundred women had my doodle up them, yet I went unscathed, for no ailment overtook me.<\/p><p style=\"font-size: 16px;\">This did not satisfy me. I longed to settle at least for a time to a woman, to be a friend to her, to have some one in whom I had some sort of confidence, whom I should always find at home, who would not say she was engaged when I called, would treat me as a friend, and desire again to see me. To feel that I must not have this comfort was doing violence to my best instincts, and I gradually gave up my promiscuous and stern yet lascivious habits. Moreover the variety of cunts had so stimulated my passions that I fucked myself out, and going to a doctor was warned that unlimited indulgence would lead to impotence, and perhaps worse, young even as I was, and not drinking, or doing any-thing else in excess.<\/p><p style=\"font-size: 16px;\">My friend disclosed to me that he had a nice little woman, a gay woman whom he visited, and spoke of her as a beautiful little creature. \u201cCome and see her, \u2014 I\u2019m going there,\u201d said he when we were dining together one night. We went to Upper N***n Street, then inhabited almost entirely by gay ladies. I found her a poor, thin, insignificant-faced little thing, but with a fine head of hair, and a very sprightly manner. Though I did not like her I commended his choice. \u201cYou won\u2019t make any attempt to have her whilst I have her?\u201d \u201cOf course not,\u201d I replied, and indeed I had no desire for it.<\/p><p style=\"font-size: 16px;\">One night when there with him a little woman came down from an upper floor, named Lizzie Stanley. She introduced me to her. I was still fretting about Sarah, and had told my griefs to my friend\u2019s woman. \u201cHere,\u201d said she to Lizzie, \u201cis a friend of mine who will just suit you, \u2014 he has just lost&nbsp;<span style=\"font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit;\">his woman, you your man, \u2014 you\u2019re fretting like fools, and are good company to each other.\u201d We were both chaffed. I went up to Stanley\u2019s rooms and told her about Sarah, she me about a man who had kept her, whom she doted on, and who had gone abroad. We both cried, and then we fucked. She was a very short girl, but plump and exquisitely made, had a lovely face, and the dearest little cunt to look at. Whether it was because she was so anxious to listen to me about Sarah, I know not; but I went to see her again and again, enjoyed her embraces, and she enjoyed mine.<\/span><\/p><\/div><\/div><\/div><div title=\"Page 651\" style=\"color: rgb(105, 23, 23); font-family: Georgia, sans-serif; text-align: center;\"><div><div><p style=\"font-size: 16px;\">When upon her one night and clasping her back-side, my hand, in its rambles in the vicinity of her buttocks, came on a second sort of hole. I thought my finger had gone into her bum-orifice, and withdrew it quickly, having a great dislike to finger that part even of the nicest lady. But again I felt it, and then it seemed to be at the end of the spine. I got curious, and fumbled with my finger all round there. She resisted, and was annoyed. Then, though she had stood quite naked fronting me, I found she would not turn round. What did I want to stare at? No she would not do it dog-fashion, \u2014 if I wanted that I might go to another woman, \u2014 she hated to be pulled about.<\/p><p style=\"font-size: 16px;\">I did not quarrel, for she was a burning-cunted little woman, not more than twenty, and fucked much to my liking; but this sinking on her back- bone which felt like a navel there annoyed me. I began to think it was some disease.<\/p><p style=\"font-size: 16px;\">I slept with her again solely to find out all about it, but all night whenever awake I found she was also. I tried to feel when poking her, but she always managed to shift herself, so that my fingers could not reach the spot for long. At last I caught her asleep on her side, and put my fingers on to the sinking, and was turning down the clothes in order to see it (for it then was day-light and summer), when she awakened. We had a row, she left the room, would not have me again, and in a few days left the lodgings. I never saw her afterward, nor found out what the mark was. My friend\u2019s woman said she knew nothing about it. It\u2019s a funny incident.<\/p><p style=\"font-size: 16px;\">There was a gay lady living on each floor of the house, among them was the sister of my friend\u2019s woman, who was gay also. She was a plain, quiet woman, but seemed a strapping, firm-fleshed piece, and older than the&nbsp;<span style=\"font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit;\">little one by two or three years perhaps. She had a very ugly nose. Out of a lot of women I should not have selected her, but yet I had her, \u2014 and it came about this way.<\/span><\/p><\/div><\/div><\/div><div title=\"Page 652\" style=\"color: rgb(105, 23, 23); font-family: Georgia, sans-serif; text-align: center;\"><div><div><p style=\"font-size: 16px;\">I went after dinner with my friend to Upper N****r n Street one night. His skinny little lady was dressing. My friend was very proud of her, \u2014 tastes differ. \u201cI can\u2019t come out yet, I\u2019m in my chemise,\u201d she cried through the folding-door. \u201cCome out, it\u2019s only ***.\u201d Then out she came. He pulled up her chemise to her quim, and asked me what I thought of her. She really was nice for those who like legs about the size of a rolling-pin, so I admired them. Then he made her strip naked, she nothing loth. I humbugged him by extolling her charms out of kindly feeling to him. \u201cWhere is your sister?\u201d said he. \u201cShe is dressing.\u201d \u201cTell her, and tell So- and-So, that if they will come down naked, we\u2019ll give them a glass of champagne, and pay their cabs to the Argyle.\u201d The skinny one went up- stairs, there was some debate, \u2014 they were not going to strip for a glass of wine, and so on. But at last down three other women came in their chemises, and stripped them off in the room. A female friend was with one of them dressing there. A woman suggested she might also be asked down. Agreed, and down she came. \u201cYou should put yourselves also naked, you two men,\u201d said one woman, \u201cthen we\u2019d have a dance.\u201d We did not see that. \u201cLook at his prick,\u201d said one woman pointing at me, \u201cit will be through his trousers directly,\u201d \u2014 and she came and felt it. I certainly was rising at the sister, whose plain face I had forgotten in admiration of her lovely limbs and body. After lots of pulling up of stockings, adjustment of garters, feeling of cunts, and smutty talk, they scampered upstairs naked, I after the sister, whilst my friend remained with his thin damsel. I was up the big sister\u2019s cunt in no time, waited till she was dressed, and going that way, drove her to the Argyle. Before I reached it the spirit again moved us, and to avoid deranging her dress she pulled up her clothes, and turning her arse toward me, impaled herself on my pego as I sat. Then she went into the Argyle with my sperm in her cunt, and carried it with her all the evening, unless there were means of purifying it there, \u2014 and I don\u2019t think there then was.<\/p><p style=\"font-size: 16px;\">I had her once or twice afterward, and one night when my friend was sleeping with his woman, I had just gone to bed with the big sister, when the thin one came into the room. She began to talk just as we had been thinking of operating. In a frisky way she pulled down the bed clothes,&nbsp;<span style=\"font-style: inherit; font-weight: inherit;\">and discovered my pego in full-blooded erection. \u201cLet\u2019s see what sort of a prick he\u2019s got,\u201d said she, \u201cOh! isn\u2019t it a nice one!\u201d We all laughed. \u201cI\u2019ll tell your friend.\u201d \u201cOh! no don\u2019t,\u201d said she, \u201che is so jealous, and such a bad temper, \u2014 there will be a row if you do.\u201d Then she whispered something to her sister, and went away, but not till I had asked her to let me see as much as I had shown her. She pulled up her chemise, rolled over the foot of the bed, opened her thighs wide, and then departed to my friend, who was awaiting her in her bedroom.<\/span><\/p><\/div><\/div><\/div><div title=\"Page 653\" style=\"color: rgb(105, 23, 23); font-family: Georgia, sans-serif; text-align: center;\"><div><div><p style=\"font-size: 16px;\">I had her sister a few times after that, and one night had just gone to bed with her intending to pass the night there, when the thin one who was in her room with some man, appeared again in her night-gown in our room, and laughing said, \u201cOh! I can\u2019t bear him, \u2014 I shall sleep here.\u201d \u201cHas he had you?\u201d \u201cNo, and I don\u2019t mean to have him.\u201d She got into bed with us, laid hold of my prick after pulling down the clothes to look at it, and getting on the top of me said, \u201cI\u2019m going to be the man, and do it to you.\u201d The sister laughed, I resisted, but the little agile devil squeezed her quim somehow on to my tool, and excited by the novelty and by the fresh cunt, I was soon spending up her. She sank satisfied on me. Her sister who had looked on laughing, gave her a loud slap on her buttocks. I think the affair had been arranged between them. My friend did not know of these pranks.<\/p><p style=\"font-size: 16px;\">\u201cShe has cheated you,\u201d said I. No she had not, for she just came on poorly. \u201cI\u2019ll come up again soon,\u201d said the thin one, \u2014 and she did, and I fucked her whilst her sister laid by the side of me. \u201cMy sister is fond of you,\u201d said the big one, \u201cand she don\u2019t like your friend, though he is kind to her.\u201d But I did not like the skinny one, and did not like cheating my friend, so never fucked her afterward. Nor had I the chance, for in a week or so he took her into keeping. That lasted some months, until finding her writing to some other man, he kicked her out and had done with her.<\/p><p style=\"font-size: 16px;\">They were at Brighton at the time that took place. He discovered a note of hers in a blotting-book. The very same minute he called up the landlady, paid the bills, and in an hour he had left the young lady with twenty pounds, and never saw her afterward. He told me all this. The sister told me the same, and that the little thin one cared nothing about it, that she did not like him, that he was ill-tempered, and exacting, had a very little prick, and was a bad poke.<\/p><\/div><\/div><\/div><div title=\"Page 654\" style=\"color: rgb(105, 23, 23); font-family: Georgia, sans-serif; text-align: center;\"><div><div><p style=\"font-size: 16px;\">I lost sight of the sister and went with other women, but not until I had fucked every woman in that house. And finding that the girl who had been dressing, and whom I had also seen naked, resided next door, I went to see her, and fucked every woman in that house as well. My price was twenty shillings, and though they were all what is called swell women, I never had my sovereign refused. I think I may say that I fucked in every room excepting the basement in those two houses.<\/p><p style=\"font-size: 16px;\">The young woman in the adjoining house was skittish in manner. I neither recollect her name nor her face well, but only that she was a good-sized woman, not too stout, with a very small waist, and an exceedingly large backside. I turned her on to her belly at the bed-side, so as to contemplate the beauties of her backside more conveniently. She objected, laughed, said, \u201cNow you shan\u2019t do that,\u201d but turned round at last, and wriggled her backside about in an unusual manner to me, then she asked me if I liked a tight fit. When I stood up to her backside and rubbed my prick against it, she said it would be a fiver. I was a little ashamed, and said I did not give more than a sovereign. \u201cIf you want what Lizzie Stanley would not let you do, I must have a fiver, and you won\u2019t tell any other woman, will you?\u201d A light broke in on me. I questioned her, and found that the little bitch Stanley had given out that she had quarrelled with me because I wanted to bugger her. All the women in both houses knew it. My friend\u2019s thin woman knew it. I was much annoyed, fearing my friend might have had the lie told him. I swore and cursed at Stanley, \u2014 did she (the girl I was with) believe it? She did not know, \u2014 some gentlemen had queer fancies. Oh dear no! she had never done it, but she was hard up and would try for a five-pound note, \u2014 she heard it gave some women pleasure. I declined the invitation, having not a suspicion of a taste for such a tight fit, so we fucked and parted, nor do I recollect having her again. I told my friend what I had heard at the house some time afterward. He had then parted with his woman, but he seemed never to have heard of the lie Lizzie Stanley had circulated about me. Al-together that girl Stanley was, and is a mystery to me still.<\/p><\/div><\/div><\/div>\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/section>\n\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>VOLUME 4 CHAPTER 2 Louisa reappears. \u2022 Crabs. \u2022 My despair. \u2022 A friend\u2019s advice. \u2022 Promiscuous harlotting. \u2022 Fucked out. \u2022 My friend\u2019s little woman. \u2022 Lizzie Stanley. \u2022 The hole by the back-bone. \u2022 The little woman\u2019s sister. \u2022 Many naked ladies. \u2022 Operations in a four-wheeler. \u2022 A she on the top. &hellip;<\/p>\n<p class=\"read-more\"> <a class=\"\" href=\"https:\/\/mysecretlife.org\/?page_id=1480\"> <span class=\"screen-reader-text\">Volume Four Chapter Two<\/span> Read More &raquo;<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"parent":0,"menu_order":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","template":"","meta":{"footnotes":""},"class_list":["post-1480","page","type-page","status-publish","hentry"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/mysecretlife.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/pages\/1480"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/mysecretlife.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/pages"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/mysecretlife.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/page"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mysecretlife.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mysecretlife.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=1480"}],"version-history":[{"count":7,"href":"https:\/\/mysecretlife.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/pages\/1480\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":2305,"href":"https:\/\/mysecretlife.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/pages\/1480\/revisions\/2305"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/mysecretlife.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=1480"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}