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“Has anybody but myself faithfully made such a record?…whatever society may say, it is but a narrative of human life…perhaps the everyday life of thousands…if the confession could be had.” Walter<\/p>

Ten years in the making, composer & narrator Dominic Crawford Collins takes you back in time through an epic immersive audiofilm of the anonymously written 19th century erotic memoirs of an English gentleman.<\/p>\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t

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What do we actually know about women\u2019s sexual behaviour in the 19th century? What degree of sexual experience or experimentation did most women have? Female sexuality is one of the most invisible subjects in women\u2019s history.<\/span><\/p>

The underground erotic fiction of the time offered a male perspective of the female mind, female diarists were not in the habit of divulging their innermost erotic thoughts or exposing their sexual exploits. The resources at our disposal for exploring the reality of this fascinating subject are practically non-existent.<\/span><\/p>

And yet there is one source, which remains relatively obscure to this day, from which we can learn more about women\u2019s sexual behaviour during the Victorian era than any other. A book called\u00a0My Secret Life;<\/em>\u00a0an anonymously penned memoir written during a period\u00a0from the 1840s to the 1880s by a wealthy and sex obsessed English gentleman who refers to himself simply as \u2018Walter\u2019. Part confessional, part investigative erotic journalism,\u00a0it meticulously documents every detail of\u00a0 the author\u2019s prolific sexual encounters, offering us in the process an eye and thigh opening account of life behind closed doors in the Victorian age.<\/span><\/p>

Women, in both mind and body, were the all consuming object\u00a0 of Walter\u2019s interest.\u00a0 From early youth through to old age his quest for erotic discovery and adventure with them was never diminished.<\/span><\/p>

Unlike contemporary\u00a019th century\u00a0erotic texts, such as\u00a0The Pearl<\/em>, whose sole object was to titillate,\u00a0 Walter\u2019s interest in his subjects did not end with the extinguishing of the carnal flame. His hunger to understand the circumstances and minds of the women he encountered is never upstaged by the sex. Their potted life histories, their most intimate desires and acts were shared with him and in turn meticulously recorded by him, written down verbatim while still fresh in his mind.<\/span><\/p>

The resulting poignant record of a lost era and the intimate moments of the women who inhabited it offer us a remarkable insight into the 19th century that cannot be gained from any other source.<\/span><\/p>

Banned from publication for its extreme and explicit content for nearly a century,\u00a0My Secret Life<\/em>\u00a0is now being released as an\u00a0audiofilm<\/em>, (a fully scored immersive audiobook), with narration and music by film composer Dominic Crawford Collins.<\/span><\/p><\/div><\/div><\/div><\/div><\/div><\/section><\/div>\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/section>\n\t\t\t\t

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A LOOK AT THE BOOK<\/strong><\/span><\/p>

A candid memoir recounting the author\u2019s erotic experiences from childhood onwards,\u00a0My Secret Life\u00a0<\/em>not only offers us a fascinating insight into the mind of someone whose entire life revolved around an epicentre of sexual obsession, but a unique historic window through which we can observe our own psychology and behaviour.\u00a0<\/span><\/span><\/p>

Described as \u2018one of the strangest books ever written\u2019,\u00a0My Secret Life<\/em>\u00a0is evocative, provocative, graphic, and even by modern day standards, extraordinarily daring! Amidst its two thousands plus pages lie a treasure trove of real lives. Lives depicted from a very different perspective to Walter\u2019s contemporaries such as Charles Dickens and Henry Mayhew; lives illuminated by the oblique light of the author\u2019s prurient eye.<\/span><\/p>

\u201ca haunting original music score for each episode sets the mood for a truly immersive erotic audio time travel experience\u201d<\/em><\/span><\/p>

Refreshingly contemporary in its literary style,\u00a0My Secret Life<\/em>\u00a0still retains the power to shock to this day. No other writer has succeeded in presenting the clandestine lives of the women of the Victorian age to the extent that Walter did. Open the pages of\u00a0My Secret Life a<\/em>nd the hidden, forbidden voices of\u00a0 the 19th century spring to life.<\/span><\/p>

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Walter was alone in giving voice to taboo subjects that other writers and diarists eschewed, for him there was nothing that was out of bounds. Whatever he did he described openly and without any degree of self consciousness. His philosophy was that human nature, and in particular his own, however perverse or out of line with the prevailing social norms, should never give rise to embarrassment. Occasional homosexual escapades are described with the same uncompromising frankness and attention to graphic detail as are other salacious episodes that would shame into silence all but the most courageous of individuals.<\/span><\/p>

Though Walter was relentlessly motivated by the desire to have sex, he was also interested in the lives and circumstances of all the women he came across; and it is his exploration of their hearts and minds, as well as their bodies, that makes\u00a0My Secret Life\u00a0<\/em>so uniquely interesting and enduring a piece of literature.<\/span><\/p>

His \u2018ear\u2019 and \u2018eye\u2019 for detail conspire to paint a vivid picture of a lost century, of a time and a place and its people, without parallel. In documenting his experiences Walter has engendered his subjects, who would otherwise have disappeared without trace into the ether of time, with immortality.<\/span><\/p>\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/section>\n\t\t\t\t

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\u2018as the composer and narrator of this audiofilm (an audio book scored in the manner of a film), of the complete unabridged text, my aim is always to enhance the emotion and drama that is present in each chapter and to establish a mood and atmosphere in which the listener can begin to envelop themselves in the eros of the past \u2018.<\/span><\/p>

Dominic Crawford Collins<\/span><\/p>

\u00a0\u2018the production on the audio book \u2013 both the reading and the music \u2013 is truly excellent.\u2019<\/em><\/span><\/p>

\u2018I\u2019d just like to thank you for your amazing audio book, absolutely fantastic, that voice with the music is sinfully erotic\u2019<\/em><\/span><\/p><\/div>

\u2018the music is beautiful, eerie in places and takes you into a dreamscape; a place beyond time\u2019<\/em><\/span><\/div>
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\u2018Overall it is highly erotic, it did, in fact, turn me on. A man cannot repeatedly say cock, prick and cunt and not be arousing.<\/em> \u2018<\/span><\/div>
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